art smear

Inspired by T.Rod.'s blog of art goodness, i decided i will start posting up my photos and art up here too. yay blogger yay. Here are a series of photos i took with a kodak hq disposable last summer.

it sucks when its the weekend and it doesn't feel like it

check out this new idea to use recyclable paper bottles instead of plastic ones. i think it could work if people caught on.



being annoyed and restless
are not good attitudes to have while trying to finish a paper;
plus i feel a little trapped.
but i got myself a pink cupcake and omg cookie to cheer myself up.
i will try to be jolly, but still,
winter kind of sucks.

modcloth, ya'll

i love everything from this place;
i'd like the entire collection transferred into my wardrobe please.

http://www.modcloth.com/store/products_new.php

perusing sites like this, looking through fugly, and upping my gchat usage is what usually happens when i get truly slammed with work. cause i like to mix it up. but i am seriously hurting from last night's attempt to stay up all night. suffer for 30 more hours, or ask for an extension? dilemma.

i am trying not to get hysterical about the fact that my paper deadline is a lot closer than i thought.

i could totally get with living in a yurt.
especially if it has a porch.

thanksgiving was four days ago

i spent the past five days with k.'s family for thanksgiving. that is a lot of days...

for some reason i decided to pretend that i was in some unreachable alternate universe. actually, it wasn't so much of a choice as the inevitable sum of a dead phone, k's family time, and copious hours of sleep.

i didn't slice out a designated time to squeeze out a reflection on what i am grateful for, but i did eat the obligatory turkey, stuffing, green beans, yam and corn, and i liked it. I don't feel the need to force myself to make up new things to be thankful about just because of the holiday. i am grateful and thankful for everything. there is not a thing in my life, a bone in my body, nor a thought in my head that i take for granted. i am so so thankful. my heart swells with so much of it that it will probably burst any day now.

yes. i am full of thanks for the ordinary, and I am glad that I have the ability to react to ordinary life with gratitude. but, sometimes, i think i will suffocate from the stillness. it is more popular to be blind, quiet, and still? apathy is the new anarchy? taking the road well-traveled means growing up? wait, what does it mean to sacrifice? a resounding slap is necessary once in a while, no? eh? i would like a daily slap. well, it doesn't necessarily have to be a slap; it just has to be anything that teaches me how to trust God more.

without the kind of hope that comes from knowing God, there really would be no point in living. life would be vapid.

fingerfoe

why is it not summer.













i am so tempted to do another study abroad.
probably australia, italy, or s. america.
also, i miss new york city.
i miss my sisters.

why do we have to follow so many rules?!
why are there so many boring people? !!!!

sad story

it is so tragic!
that both of montreal and conor oberst are coming into town,
and i can't make it to the shows.
tragic!

balancing beam

the older that i get, the more often i have the "what is the point?" moments, and the response to this question always has to do something with the ability to balance.

i suppose this is what keeps me in the game.

but to remember: balance must not be confused with mediocrity.

i love public radio.

i love national public radio.

i <3 banksy.

pie in the sky

what a lovely photo
i didn't take this photo.
i haven't developed any pictures from my smena 8m, but i will soon.
i wish i had a dark room.

i am in a werid funk b/c i want to sleep all the time.
the first month of this semester was easy breezy;
and now its still breezy
but a slow breeze.
uh oh. i am starting to feel antsy again.

the best thing about my day recently
is eating the delicious apples that we picked
from a real-life apple orchard this past weekend.
they are so so delicious.
i eat 4-5 apples a day.
i will probably turn into an apple.

oh! also, yesterday
we went to the landmark theatre
to see david sedaris.
if i were to have a crush on a gay man,
it would be probably be him.

i wish i was taller

i did it.
i bought shiny black tights.
imagine my surprise when i put them on and found them to be uber comfy.
the possibilities are endless.
let's see what i can do with this bad boy.

you know what would really help though...if i was taller.

things i'm interested in right now:
1) "northern songs" album of canadian musicians/bands compiled by starbucks
2) yashica TRL 124G
3) stewie, from family guy

mental health day

I took a mental health day today. Meaning, i did a little of everything. Or a little bit of nothing; however you want to put it. I needed some cave-time. This means I watched a lot of pointless tv, pulled out my guitar to play, did some research (not enough), drank fresca, scoured the internet, made cookies, and did some slow work on my essays.

Also! It was truly exciting when my Smena 8M camera came. I love the little pouch it came in. The Russsian manual wasn't too exciting though because I couldn't understand a lick of it. So i had to look up some sort of English version and fool around with the functions. I left the apartment to take a walk around the neighborhood to try out the new camera (and pick up some chinese take-out), and was pleased at the wonderful weather which provided good shadows and sun rays. Yay. We'll see how this first film turns out.

1) i emailed the worthless booksellers who still haven't responded btw about giving me a refund on their regengade textbooks. (argh!) And i also shamelessly watched gossip girls.

2) Even though it is time-consuming and frustrating at times, I love writing. I would give my left pinky toe to be a writer for the NYtimes.

3) I really hope I feel better about facing the real world tomorrow because I have a lot to do. The feeling right now though is that I could do this cave woman thing all week.

things about modern techonology that i really appreciate

1. Trash disposal in my kitchen sink
2. Clorox wipes
3. Google
4. Youtube
5. Toliet

in vogue?

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/09/01/business/worldbusiness/01vogue.html?scp=1&sq=vogue%20and%20india&st=cse

albums i love a lot these days

"Open Season", Feist
"Conan Oberst", Conan Oberst
"Late Night Tales", Belle & Sebstian
"Re-Arrange Us", Mates of State
"One Cell in the Sea", A Fine Frenzy

serpent and doves

I usually have a hard time listening or watching to political candidates speeches in general b/c it always seems to reek with condescending hypocrisy and overly-prepared sincerity. I prefer to get my fix from news commentaries or summaries on the speeches to get the gist of what was said so I can avoid the drama altogether. I guess that's indicative of how cynical i've gotten about change, and it makes me sad to realize that.

The other day, I was listening to NPR's segment on past stories and speeches of VP, one of the more memorable ones being Truman's VP, Barkley. I couldnt' help but compare the differences between the present and past era; maybe it was the quality of the scratchy recording or the way that NPR spins these things, but I was genuinely touched by the sincerity of tone and most notably, the hope. The man sounded like he really believes in what he's saying for a better tomorrow. The contrast was even more evident because in the present day, my worldview is tainted by a veil of doubt about the sincerity of anyone, particularly politicians.

This morning I read the transcripts of Biden and Bill Clinton's speeches for the DNC, and although initially I grimaced through a lot of the shiny veneer, reading instead of listening to the speeches helped me to read between the lines, in a refreshing way. And maybe it was the distance, but ultimately, I couldn't help but appreciate the collection of arguments that they had prepared for why Obama should be the next president. Most of these arguments bank on hope, depending on the fact that people want change and want to believe in change. I am really not one to make character judgments and say someone is insincere or not, but that matters much less than the actual initiative for change. The important thing is that there is discussion of any kind of hope at all.

It's not as if I've lived too many years as a cynic but I feel as if maybe I should actively work on developing my world-view with a grain of sugar, as well as salt. Cynicism comes about as a reaction, and maybe a necessary one, but I haven't noticed any positive effects or fruits from doubting and second-guessing everything. The natural consequence of apathy is more apathy and ultimately, the apathetic person loses out. It takes an extra effort to use discernment and make a conscious choice to be a person who actively hopes, but the change (and the process of change) is worth the effort. Obviously I'm not advocating ignorance or hippie love, but I am saying that the adage, "wise as serpents and innocent as doves" makes a lot of sense as a foundation for developing a outlook on the world. If this serpent and dove thing is managed with a sense of balance, faith, and sense of humor, this whole growing up thing might not be so bad.

Tuesday brunch with the sisters

<3

f-bomb to mean people

boo to all mean and unhappy people who are too lazy to make any sort of effort beyond their tiny-brained world

martha cooper

countdown: two days

gah i feel like a crazy person.!
my room looks like an homage to the crazy gods!

it always seems to happen that i have the most brilliant ideas and zings of creativity in the moments right before a pending exam or deadline. Its not too effective for time management, but it does somehow work itself out in an unexpected balance of inspiration and stability.

i love woostercollective!

a philosophy of photography

By taking a picture, the photographer usually does so with the intention of showing and telling.
In this way, the photo taker is selfish, taking what she wants.

I probably take pictures to remember; its bonkers to experience all the feelings and memories an old picture can evoke.

But also: truly living a life is done BEST when life is appreciated, mostly accomplished through the heightened awareness of one's presence and reaction to everything that comes. By taking a picture and showing it, my telling is holding still a moment in time to allow the viewer some objectivity to take a step back and recognize it as a meaningful slice of life. And by way of the viewer reacting to that moment in life, she will hopefully engage in appreciation of living a life.

secret billboards

Life doesn't work if you don't know who you are.

adventures on the cam

punting, ya'll

mid-afternoon crowd

gosh, i miss k.




golly, i wish they were here.

bookish

the last 5 books i read:
1. mrs. dalloway - virginia woolf
2. the day of the jackal - frederick forsyth
3. raven black - anne cleeves
4. the queen's fool - philippa gregory
5. good in bed - jennifer weiner

the next 5 books i want to read:
1. the book of the dunn cow - walter wangerin
2. c.s. lewis' space trilogy
3. when you are engulfed in flames - david sedaris

wine and cigars in the park

birthday pleasantries

We went to the nearby park yesterday to hurrah the gorgeous weather, and I can't think of a better way I would have wanted to celebrate my birthday here. I adore the parks here because everyone makes such good use of them; i.e. plenty of sporadic and spontaneous plopping down and rolling around on the grass, essential for park-grazing. We did our share of plopping down and rolling about, using our curtains and R.'s Hawaiian bedsheets as a picnic blanket, which worked out better than anticipated (minus one tiny incident...).

And I had a birthday cake! with firecrackers, and a renegade group of kids passing through the area singing me 'Happy Birthday', very loudly. We smoked cigars with our shiraz and chocolate, and had long and lagging conversations about films, religion and song lyrics until it got dark.



So now to further commemorate my 25th year of surviving on this planet, i decided to write up The List of things I hope to accomplish within this next year:

1. Buy and learn how to play ukulele.
2. Record an album (c'mon, get on with it already)
3. Get good grades for my 2L year.
4. Get started on finishing my other degree.
5. Have a part-time job.
6. Learn how to paint with oils.

It should make for an interesting year...i'm glad it's here.
25, here i come!

a fine frenzy

i have the biggest girl-crush on alison sudol, a.k.a. a fine frenzy.



she has the most tremendous but subtle voice, her performances are spot-on, and she is ga-ga-gorgeous. c'mon now.

http://www.afinefrenzy.com/

handmade postcards

a quasi-grown up blog

Due to the fact that everytime i try to sign in to xanga they demand cookies, I'm moving to blogger.

Cookies, goodness.